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  • Kill Him, Rodney!

    I once asked a friend whose son was playing football in the 7th grade what he felt when he saw his child getting hit and knocked to the ground.  His reply shocked me: “I love it,” he said, staring me straight in the eye, daring me to be surprised!  “It means,” he continued, “that he’s playing the game the right way!”

    Football is a modern equivalent of gladiatorial contests in Rome, that other imperialistic, military state.  Consider for a moment this scenario: the quarterback in the pocket trying to find an open receiver, surrounded by mayhem as linebackers, linemen, and offensive linemen manhandle one another to protect or attack him, not unlike a medieval bear tied to the stake as baying dogs jostle each other to get to it (the QB, like the bear, has little room to maneuver unless defenses break down and he can run for his life).  As this unfolds there’s a split-second when one of the defensive players breaks free of his guard just as the ball’s about to be released.  As we watch, our reaction depends entirely on what happens in the next instant—if the quarterback is on the opposing team and he throws the ball before he is tackled we are deluged with frustration and fear that his pass might be for a big gain; if he gets hit before, immeasurable waves of satisfaction course through us.  In fact, the more vicious the hit the greater the concomitant gratification.  But the moment before this happens is why we watch the game—that nano-second replete with blood-lust and screaming intensity, held on to as long as possible before being released in an orgasmic flood of pleasure.  How different then is this moment from the ones Roman spectators experienced just as a gladiator’s sword plunged into the hapless body of his victim?  In fact, they even had the option to decide who lived and who died!  The sounds from two millennia ago reverberate today across every football stadium in the country, with spectators screaming for blood as players brutalize one another!

    I remember watching my alma mater Florida State play football in the 90s when they were perennial title threats.  One year in particular, their defense was so good and so feared that during the championship game the commentators, with obvious awe in their voices, counted how many opposing QBs hadn’t even survived the first quarter!  When an elite quarterback is shredding our defense, who among us would not like to see him knocked out of the game with a violent hit?  There comes a moment in every game when that seems the only viable option if our team is going to win.  That’s not even a dirty secret; it’s an obvious sentiment to any fan (short for fanatic) who has suffered under the yoke of several losing seasons in a row and even among fans whose team won last year!  Tom Brady is the most successful QB of the last decade.  If you’re not a Patriots fan you hate him; at least, most of us do!  Not only is he a constant threat to the wellbeing of our fandom, he’s also considered good-looking, at least good-looking enough to be married to a supermodel.  So it’s perfectly rational that we should hate him more!  In every personality test there are certain trick questions designed to test the veracity of the test-taker—there’s only one acceptable answer.  For example, would you smuggle past customs a contraband substance you desperately desired if you were certain you wouldn’t get caught?  There are no ifs, ands, or buts about it.  The only answer is in the affirmative, unless your name is Gautama, Jesus, or Mohandas.  If you don’t want Brady out of the game you’re simply not a fan, period!  Yes, we can win with Brady still on the field, and yes it would be more satisfying, but who wants to take that chance??  Getting rid of him with a “legal” hit allows us to breathe easier and enhances the reputation of our defense!

    Why then do we feign shock on discovering that there were bounties offered for injuring opponents, particularly quarterbacks?  We can say as much as we want about skill and finesse and speed, all of which are present in spades, but they are all couched in a violent package.  Witness the uproar by commentators and former players against the Commissioner’s attempts to reduce violence in football; they seem to be afraid that the so-called integrity of the game (by which I assume they mean the traditional ways of playing it) will be compromised. This in the shadow of a class-action lawsuit that incorporates over 80 pending lawsuits from former NFL players and the families of deceased NFL players, claiming the league hid the links between concussion-related and other head trauma and permanent brain damage.

    It’s just a game, isn’t it? And no-one dies.  There are helmets and body armor and rules, directives designed to cast a civilized hue over the proceedings to protect the so-called integrity of the sport; parameters drawn up to restrict emotional explosions to the safety of a controlled environment where referees and umpires armed with yellow flags and whistles may call the howling hounds to heel!  No-one is forced to participate, until you remember that the lure of millions of dollars belies having a choice!  And we don’t have to watch, until you remember, and here’s the crux of it, that we may be hardwired towards violence.  When I was in high school I remember watching a boxing match between one of my friends, Rodney, against a rival school’s best boxer.  Rodney was a pugilist—tough and vicious in the ring, a force like Mike Tyson.  The other boxer was a stylist—light on his feet, perfect technique, balletic. He was scoring quick points against Rodney, dancing his way to an easy victory until he got cornered and Rodney unleashed a flurry of combinations.  Suddenly I realized that I was standing on my chair together with several hundred other boys and girls screaming, ‘Kill him, Rodney!  Kill him!”  I’ll never forget that moment because as soon as the other boxer hit the canvas, knocked out cold, I watched myself, in an out-of-body experience, turn into a Roman!  I’ve eschewed boxing ever since, because I know beyond any doubt that Grendel lives inside me and it won’t take much to resurrect it!

    I’m not an anthropologist or social psychologist so I don’t want to inject any simplistic psychobabble about living in a violent society.  All I can say is that football flourishes because we enjoy watching the other team’s players get their heads bashed in before they can score a touchdown!  And I who loves baseball, cricket, and Olympic hockey (not the NHL so much) for their artistry, and soccer for its sublime beauty am drawn to football for its speed and precision, but sadly also for its simple brutality!

  • Just Wondering About Christmas…

    I was sitting around the other day, twiddling my thumbs, in a general state of procrastination over something or other (which is par for the course of my life), contemplating the year gone by, and wondering as we head into this holiday season why we do the things we do.  For instance, when we go bargain hunting for Christmas presents are we trying to save money or just get the cheapest acceptable gift, or both?  And has this always been a tradition?  Just wondering…

    I mean, when the wise men left for Bethlehem were gold and perfumes on sale?  How much thought did they put into choosing frankincense and myrrh?  Speaking of presents, why do we rip off the paper without a second thought for how much care went into wrapping the gifts?  Then again, why do we put so much care into wrapping presents when we know they’ll just be ripped off without a second thought?  Just wondering!  And how many forests were cut down to make that wrapping paper?  Just wondering…

    How often during the year have we spoken to the people to whom we send Christmas cards?  How many times have we contacted them during the last five years?  You know, beyond the “likes” we add to their status updates!  Do we actually read the printed verses in the cards we send or receive?  How many people receive cards from us only after we discover that they’ve sent us a card?  And how do we really feel about mass email greetings?  Or online versions of cards accompanied by muzak renditions of carols?  Just wondering…

    Why should our children get more than one gift?  Why do we ask close relatives what they want for Christmas?  When did we forget that the fun of gift-giving is trying to figure out what people will like?  Why do stores have special counters so we can return gifts we don’t like in exchange for whatever we fancy?  Why have we become so blasé that we leave the shop tag on with the assumption that the recipient will probably return the gift anyway?

    Why is Santa always a fat, bearded man?  Is it only a matter of time before he becomes a spokesman for Weightwatcher’s?  Or for Gillette razors?  Can’t we have a thin snowman?  Just wondering…

    Why do we hang one stocking instead of two?  Why do so many people not have any shoes?  Just wondering!  When did straw in a stable and a star in the sky turn into bunting and tinsel?  Why do we leave milk and cookies near the tree on Christmas eve for an imaginary character, when thousands of real people near our homes go hungry every day?  Just wondering!  Just . . . wondering!

     

  • A Wet Blanket

    In the blinding euphoria of the recent election, before we endow them with messianic auras, let’s remember they’re just politicians—all of them.  Decent human beings who care about family, country, etc?  Yes.  But all of them, in every country on the globe, are enmeshed in a system (created by their political forebears and promulgated by their own attempt to consolidate power) that forces simplistic solutions on multifaceted problems.  They often have to put deeply-cherished principles aside (or force those principles on others) and cater to that ubiquitous, destructive political expediency—National Interest.  What does it mean?  It’s the worst problem affecting the State, an absurd attempt to force a common viewpoint upon millions of individuals by reducing intricate relationships and aspirations to one-dimensional explanations and actions that often exacerbate the situation by band-aiding complexity with naivete.

    Two major issues face the President and the new Congress–War and the Economy. A little retrospective might be painful but necessary if history is to teach us anything. Dare we acknowledge that we might at least have been partially responsible, through decades of our arrogant foreign policy missteps, for fermenting the cauldron that brewed the 9/11 attacks?  No, because that might force us to confront the ogre in the mirror and would also offer a comprehensible explanation for the rise of Al Qaeda.  It’s much more palatable to believe that terrorist organizations are peopled by unreasonable zealots capable of random acts of destruction, whereas our actions that devastate innocent lives (through drone attacks or bombs, etc.) are logical responses to protecting our National Interests and keeping our country safe.  So we continue to be at war!  Or that unmitigated deregulation of financial institutions and greed (through the tenures of both parties) led to an economic meltdown?  No, because the stock market must continue to soar and success on the American Way is calculated by how much money we make. We can’t “hope for change” without some introspection and many mea culpas!

  • Baseball

    In 1985, when I was living in Bahrain I watched all seven games of the World Series between the Cardinals and the Royals without knowing anything about baseball. I still don’t know why or how I made it through the series, for I watched it alone, without Google, and without knowing the difference between a ball and a strike. Even today, when umpires have their own ways of calling a game (including hand signals for balls and strikes) it needs a moment, if you’re not paying close attention, to see the difference; strike zones are fluid, shifty shapes like ghostly apparitions—just when you think you see them, they’re gone. It took me a few games to decipher anything, but it was a slow month and I had only two channels on TV, one of them in Arabic, so baseball won.

    This was America’s game and as I was getting ready to move to the States I thought I needed to understand this sport some had likened to cricket, but was unlike any cricket I had ever played or seen. For the most part I was able to follow along with the commentators as long as there wasn’t anything too complex. The in-field fly rule would come later. I remember the Game Six controversy at first base; not who the principals were, just that there seemed to be a fight going on, with replays clearly dividing villains from victims. I was familiar with disputes in cricket where players surround officials and make their case in heated and vociferous ways, but I had never seen managers from the pavilion (cricket’s equivalent of a dugout, minus the spitting and general untidiness; pavilions are genteel places with tea services and polite applause) rush onto the field to challenge an umpire’s decision. What I saw that October was much in keeping with my simplistic opinion of America—where the power, brashness, and brute athleticism so evident in football, which I had also seen on TV and understood less, were masked by long moments of silence as pitchers prepared their wind-ups (in cricket, bowlers run before delivering the ball) and only occasionally displayed as runners charged towards bases bent on injuring opponents.

    So began my interest in the boys of summer. Living in Tallahassee during graduate school I would watch it occasionally on TBS, which is how and why (like many Americans) I became an Atlanta Braves fan. That and the fact that they were the only team nearby (the Marlins hadn’t yet appeared on the scene) and were in last place in 1990 (an appealing underdog status), from where they went on to win the NL West against the Dodgers in 1991. Two years later they acquired an artist named Greg Maddux from the Cubs and that’s when baseball changed for me. Now it was about pitching rather than batting, about artistry rather than power, about strategy rather than brute strength. I had grown up watching the great spinners of cricket bowling, artists with subtle changes of speed, who “flighted” the ball slowly, daring a batsman to hit it. I was also beginning to see baseball against the backdrop of America as I began traveling across and exploring this adopted country of mine, learning to look beyond the façade to apprehend the complexity beneath facile assumptions and naive definitions of Americana.

    There have been numerous attempts to draw parallels between baseball and America, most notably Ken Burns’ documentaries about the game. Such comparisons tend to overreach their objectives, seeking to explain one through the lens of the other in ways that simplify and diminish both. Most of these associations are located in the early or middle part of the last century when the shifting currents of racism affecting our national psyche found their roots in baseball; and Jackie Robinson and the Negro League became symbols for social change. A key element of American mythology is the rags-to-riches illusion that persisted through generations and endures even today despite evidence to the contrary and the disenchantment of a burgeoning underclass; we cling to false idols of random celebrity, buoyed by ephemeral trends in market fluctuations or accidental encounters that cough up occasional millionaires or superstars. Baseball lore was hallowed on the altars of those fleeting legends—stories of scouts chancing upon raw talent toiling on fields across the Midwest or South, poised to be delivered into stardom. Of all our sports, only baseball cherishes the concept of the Natural, players who possess such innate skills as amateurs that the transition into the professional ranks is merely a matter of being discovered. This personification of the American Dream does not belie the American concept of a work ethic where success is the reward of labor, but it does tend to equate the two in ways that permit the mirage of upward mobility.

    Basketball is the most popular sport among children, followed by soccer (especially if you combine the indoor and outdoor versions); but neither can compete with football as a spectator sport. We simply love violent entertainment; there’s no way around that fact—TV, movies, guns, boxing, mixed martial arts, bounties in football, etc. Hockey might not survive were it not for the violence associated with it; even lacrosse has found its own aggressive niche!

    Although baseball is no longer really the national pastime, its popularity is a bit puzzling at first. Home runs may be overrated in the grand scheme of things; only a handful of top home-run hitters also have a high batting average. So it cannot be that alone; nor can it be the occasional clashes at each base. How then is this woven into the American ethos? It almost seems un-American—slow-moving, full of hidden strategies, and predicated on failure, where a 30 percent batting average is a benchmark of success couched by the delusional term 300, which I first thought meant 300 percent, a superhuman number obviously designed to make us feel better! A game that conceivably could have no ending and could last for several hours—almost but not quite like cricket!

    When you migrate to a country it’s easy to force any experience into a portmanteau with the preconceived notions that accompanied you. America’s image, for better or worse, right or wrong, has always been swathed in aggressiveness—loud, imperious, and intimidating; constantly on the attack politically, economically, and even culturally in the way we export Americana across the globe. Football would appear to be the perfect embodiment of our national psyche, which in part explains its preeminence; nor have we done much recently to dispel that image. Other countries may be as aggressive, and their political arenas and social discourse just as contentious and strident, but our standing in the world thrusts us into the global limelight, and slowly the portrait we depict outwardly seeps into our consciousness (aided by heedless actions), forcing us to adjust our own self-image—thus we become the thing we project, more than superficially, which is where my discussion hinges.

    It’s tempting to describe baseball as an intellectual sport, but that’s a misnomer; chess is essentially an intellectual game, demanding intricate planning, strategies, an ability to construct complex visual patterns and change them, the foresight to think ahead and to outwit one’s opponent who is doing the same thing. Baseball does involve mind games between batter and pitcher (and managers), and requires talents beyond athletic ability (in basketball and other sports that talent is woven into athletic ability, where players feint, bob, and swerve to keep away from opponents), where a pitcher and batter try to out-think each other. Tony Gwynn, who was Greg Maddux’ nemesis in an age when Maddux dominated most other batters, talked about this concept in an ironic way; he said he didn’t try to out-fox Maddux (and his pitching partner, Tom Glavine) because he would never win. Gwynn opined that the only way to face Maddux and Glavine was to take the “thinking” out of the process and try to react athletically; rather than attempt to guess at the next pitch, he would clear his mind of those thought-processes, wait for the pitch and swing at it. In other words, play baseball almost in an un-baseball-like fashion!  He reasoned that was the only way to bat against one of the great artistic pitchers of all time; and his record proves his point (Barry Bonds hit 9 HRs against Maddux, but his average was only 0.265; Gwynn’s was a phenomenal 0.415)! Conversely, Maddux once said that he thought about pitching differently after facing Bonds, for he began to think not about individual batters but about series of batters; thus, the way to pitch to Bonds (according to Maddux) was to walk Bonds, but pitch to the batters before and after him, hoping to get them out! Greg Maddux’ thought processes about baseball are legendary (he would call pitches of opposing pitchers from the dugout before the pitch was made), which is why his nickname was The Professor (not a moniker one would find in many sports).

    Anyone who has watched a curve ball float in the air like a swallow and then drop like a swooping hawk into the strike zone knows that of all our professional sports baseball is the least about power. At least, it wasn’t designed to be about power, which has been forced upon it through our obsession with home runs! Some would argue it’s a perfectly designed sport. Complex and cerebral! Ninety feet between bases! Such an accurate distance. Apparently they stumbled upon it. God-given, the old-timers say; those wizened aficionados who grew up sitting under trees listening to the slap of leather on leather as young men pitched into the setting sun. There’s no scientific reason it should be ninety feet. Ninety-one, and they throw you out in a yawn. Eighty-nine and batting averages soar. But ninety demands almost perfect fielding and throwing. An in-field bobble and, if you’re fast, you’ve got a hit. Now if they’d only get the strike zone right: the way it was meant to be; the way it’s written in the rule-book—from the letters to the knees! Not the belt, the letters! But all they want are home runs! To bring fans into the park.

    Still, control and movement define the best pitchers. Add power to that, and you’re unstoppable. Artistry is what separates baseball from the other American team sports. It’s a ruminative game. Ruminative? To ponder? To think over? What does it mean? The pitcher throws, considers what to do next, exchanges signs, then pitches again. Ruminative. Everyone’s thinking—both managers in their dugouts; the catcher, the batter, and the pitcher. And the fielders anticipating a flyball or infield hit based on what kind of hitter the batter is and what pitching sign the catcher has laid down. Out-thinking. That’s the ticket. They’re all trying to out-think the other guy.

    The point is that “thinking” is part of the process (Gwynn had to suspend it against Maddux; but he substituted another kind of thinking), and as with all such encounters it takes time to develop, which is why baseball is a slow game, almost meditative, a game in which players feel their way through nine innings, taking mental notes early about the size of the strike zone, umpiring inclinations, and the tendencies of the starting pitcher, after having studied as much as they can about his pitches before the game—locations, velocity, what his preferences are depending on the count, which base is filled, who’s on deck, in the hole, how many runs are on board. Pitchers do their homework about the batting line-up they will face that day—the more thinking they get done, the more likely they are to succeed!

    If such a game claims to be the national sport, what does it say about the masses of people who watch and play it, or is that an exercise in futility? If the popularity of football, bloody football hints at national character, even on a superficial level, shouldn’t the attraction of baseball temper those characterizations? But national pastimes are just one small piece in the complex puzzle of societies, particularly societies as mutable as ours, with ever-changing demographics and constant immigration. What does it say then about those poorer Latin countries that revere the game and provide some of our best players even as a lack of equipment and space are placing the game beyond the reach of some segments of our American society? Yes we love violent sports; but we also produce great artists and intellectuals. We play smash-and-grab pickup games, but many of our public parks are littered with chess players, and golf is popular despite its obvious class distinctions.

    Perhaps there’s another reason. Baseball is the embodiment of the capitalist system we revere. That alone may make it America’s game. With no salary cap, it’s been hijacked by the robber barons of big market teams, mirroring the top two percent of our society! One can argue there have been teams that defied financial probabilities, but even that’s not at odds with capitalism—so often we see small companies surge against all expectations, revivifying the false American mantra that anyone can succeed in this land of opportunity! Every year it seems that the usual suspects are able to challenge for spots in the playoffs. Yes, the Yankees do lose, but who would bet against them making the playoffs next year? That doesn’t explain the Cubs, who couldn’t seem to win for over a hundred years despite high payrolls. Until, of course, they did. But nothing much explains the Cubs except their loyal fans and what Oscar Wilde would call “the confounded stupidity of optimism!” The paradox is that, although it’s not a legal monopoly, baseball is protected by anti-trust laws that separate it from other sports and accord it a special position in the American marketplace. This perpetuates the notion that baseball is somehow special, even as its popularity has dropped far below football and basketball.

    The wildcard, inter-league play, and steroid controversies have conspired to keep the game in the public consciousness. Every time scribes and talking heads are about to pronounce baseball dead, something special happens—the home run record chase by McGuire and Sosa (both of whom are now in disgrace; but celebrities, politicians, and an assortment of heroes are constantly falling into disrepute; it’s the American way) and then a small-market underdog Texas Rangers team loses back-to-back World Series (each one more improbable than the other), tugging at our heartstrings and reviving passion in the game again. And then the Cubs won. And that consistent resurrection from the ashes may be the most American thing about baseball. After all, the Phoenix was the original national bird, and part of the first Seal of America!

  • Striking Teachers!

    Another ingredient has been pitched into the toxic pre-election political cauldron as teachers find themselves in a stand-off with the mayor of Chicago, a situation that is being watched with interest around the country as the inevitable questions surrounding education and money take center stage.  As with most things these days the case has been reduced to simplistic battle-lines—unions versus government, laborers versus authority, accountability versus oversight.  Lost in the shuffle are the larger issues underlying most of our ills today—the economic context underpinning this problem, class differences in American society, capitalism versus socialism; who should pay for and who should be in charge of education (which of course immediately negates the idea of collaboration and partnership).

    Let me suggest at the outset that I think the practice of property taxes funding local schools has bifurcated the education system, erecting barriers to divide populations further along socio-economic lines.  Funding isn’t the only solution but it does place inner-city schools behind the 8-ball and is related to the elephant in the room trumpeting the problem which everybody appears to know but nobody really heeds—students from disadvantaged populations tend to perform much below their richer counterparts.  There’s research and anecdotal evidence to support this claim, yet we find ourselves discussing the validity of linking 35 percent of teacher evaluations to student performance on standardized tests under the false premise that a teacher is largely to blame for poor scores, which is just as specious as suggesting that high scores are the result of superior teaching.  This rejects the other factors at the heart of student performance—familial participation in the education process, nutrition and the atmosphere at home (haven’t we seen domestic discord affect performance even in students from affluent homes?), parental expectations and pride in scholastic achievement, communal harmony or dissonance, friendly peer rivalry, etc.

    A word about standardized tests.  They are the fast food of our education system—a convenient way to address an immediate need without much value to it.  There’s a reason hundreds of colleges and universities are paying little or no attention to test scores—they have failed to perform the task for which they were designed, which is to evaluate a student’s readiness for college.  The problem lies at both ends—colleges have become degree mills, apostates of their stated missions to educate global citizens (whatever that means today) and high schools are desperately trying to prepare students for the next stage without knowing what that next stage really is.  Teachers are obviously in the middle of this turbulence, particularly the ones in poorer districts scrambling to help their schools and students meet basic needs (textbooks, rudimentary classroom technology, deteriorating infrastructure), although affluent suburban teachers also find themselves under pressure as education has yielded to college preparation and both ends are so far apart as to be unrecognizable from either side.

    There’s a ridiculous number being bandied about that the average Chicago teacher’s salary is between $71k and $74k per year.  THAT’S SIMPLY NOT TRUE: http://preaprez.wordpress.com/2012/09/12/the-in-box-the-74000-lie/  What is true is that the average annual salary of a US Congressperson is $174,000 in addition to the best health benefit package taxpayers’ money can buy (that’s what gridlock and inertia cost these days), but there’s no move to tie raises to performance, nor are there any objective assessments built into the system except the vagaries of an electorate as dysfunctional as Congress itself.

    The false idol of American capitalism is the notion that individual responsibility and personal enterprise and creativity are the only engines running a successful society and that Government is a hindrance, which either ignores government bailouts, corporate tax-cuts, and subsidies or suggests that they are the price taxpayers pay for corporations to benefit societies, when much of what they do is hoard profits or indulge in speculation designed only to drive their stock prices higher.  This is the theory behind property taxes for local schools, where we invest only in ourselves and not in society at large (and petulantly criticize regional and national governments for using tax dollars to fund less advantaged communities), resulting in segregated populations and uneven playing fields!

    As much as I understand what teachers in this dispute are saying I have to admit that there’s a real problem on their side as well and I’d like to state it baldly: many teachers are just not good!  That’s what’s driving the call for evaluation, even if the solutions are misguided.  It isn’t enough to care, although that certainly helps; heaven knows I’ve had my share of teachers who didn’t give a damn!   It isn’t enough to like children.  You have to be competent as well.  But isn’t competency a platypus when it comes to education, comprising many seemingly disparate parts?  It isn’t enough to have a clear lesson plan or to be aware of the latest pedagogical methods—teaching is about helping students become knowledgeable, but how does one do that when Knowledge itself is almost impossible to define and in the common parlance of our digital age has become synonymous with information?  It involves such difficult concepts as belief and truth and justification and is obviously a lifelong pursuit as we learn to think critically and sift through experiences for kernels of truth.  A teacher needs to be so passionate about the world (not just about a subject) as to always be a student!  How do you incorporate that in teacher education and then assess it in a culture that appears to be only superficially interested in anything beyond parochial borders?

    If this seems like a daunting task, it is and it should be.  This is the noblest profession in the world!!  Now I’m not suggesting that high school teachers be epistemologists, but we should expect them to help students understand their relationship with the world.  Mathematics and writing, to use but two examples, should be windows to their world, not just ends in themselves; unfortunately, even the basic elements of these twin subjects are beyond the scope of so many high school students.  I know.  I read stacks of applications every year.  And I just discovered that thousands of students with good test scores abort their college applications at the essay section, forcing universities to abrogate that requirement.  We are all enablers, complicit in pandering to the lowest expectations of our students!   So what if they can’t write?  They can pay their college fees and make it through courses that gradually lower standards to meet the diminishing levels of competence among students.  Soaring costs of education have turned students into consumers and in a capitalist society the customer is always right!

    One final question, because I fear I’m getting depressed as I type this.  If we expect students to learn to write, how well do we expect the average elementary, middle, and high school teacher to write?  I don’t mean just English teachers; I mean any teacher.  If you can’t write well you can’t communicate well.  I’m not talking about stringing grammatically correct sentences together, but encapsulating ideas within paragraphs.  Is that an insulting question?   Really?  If it is, then we don’t have a problem!

     

  • Nine-Eleven

    I was in our living room in Bombay on September 11, 2001, having arrived 4 days earlier from the UK after two weeks of traipsing around Wales and Snowdonia and parts of Northern France and Belgium with my cousin in her cabriolet with the top down (the cabriolet not the cousin), for it was mostly sunny that year both in England and France.  Little did I know as I went through European checkpoints that my identity would soon change from suspected Illegal Alien to suspected Terrorist.  I’m not sure which I prefer; of course I’d rather it was neither, but at least the former elicits some pity whereas the latter evokes torrents of rage!  I was on a sabbatical in India, one of those cherished breaks academics relish because it gives us a chance to do some research in a remote corner of the world on a remote topic only other academics would appreciate; in this instance I was there to make a documentary film on Indian theatre to bring back to my students and colleagues so they could see what theatre-making was like on the other side of the world.  I nurtured this thought that someone would care and I also had a vague notion it would help in my attempts to get promoted to full professor, an effete title that really means very little (even with the salary increase) in actual terms; it certainly doesn’t make you a better teacher (nothing does if you aren’t already by the time you’ve spent a few years doing the thing) and the only advantage I can gather is that it bestows on you a kind of hollow gravitas during a gathering of other professors, although no-one knows whether or not you are unless you find a way to slip it into the conversation.  But I was in India to help promote some understanding of foreign cultures, reasoning that it might help students and colleagues extend the boundaries of their acquaintance with theatre beyond Midwestern borders, which could be a good thing.  I had no idea when I started that the whole idea of globalism would suddenly be redefined in the most violent and shocking way.

    My mother’s living room isn’t small, but it isn’t big by American standards, large enough to accommodate a sofa set, some side tables, a wooden easy chair with sliding extensions to rest outstretched legs  (in which my father used to recline and in which I always feel like an imposter because it’s daddy’s chair and he filled it so grandly), and a piano with cracked yellowing ivories rarely in perfect tune because the old tuner who would turn up every few years (without advance notice because neither he nor we had a telephone) had died one year and we didn’t know until someone mentioned it to my mother; and a TV set which we were watching cursorily as we chatted, my mother and I, about my brief sojourn in the UK as we munched on savories I had bought at Fortnum and Mason’s one afternoon in London when I left the store and ran into Timothy Dalton in a side street as he was waiting to cross and said to him I liked his performance as Rochester in Jane Eyre, at which he looked quizzically at me in a way that told me he wasn’t used to anyone referencing anything other than James Bond when talking to him; but I had liked his Rochester (and didn’t care too much for his Bond, which was much too saturnine and actually quite apropos for any Bronte), although I wonder if part of my admiration had to do with the fact that I was surprised 007 was able to stretch his acting muscles beyond car chases and plane jumping.

    Life felt so normal that week before the world changed.  Mummy and I shooting the breeze about the rest of the family and all the places I had visited, particularly those landmarks from our English poetry primers—Banbury, with its statue of the Lady on her white horse in the city square and the immortal verse printed for all to read.  I could barely contain my delight when I happened upon the river Dee (The Miller of the Dee was a poem I had once performed when the world was young), and the poignant Beddgelert in Gwynedd, Wales, the grave of a faithful dog mistakenly slain by his master Llywelyn who thought the blood on its muzzle belonged to the baby but was in fact from a wolf that Gelert the hound had killed to protect the infant heir!  Then there was the Memorial Arch in Ypres, Belgium with lists of the Gorkha Brigade, those brave Indians who died all over Europe in the service of their colonial masters!  I’m glad I shared all these memories with my mother in those first few days because it seemed like everybody in every city around the globe had more or less the same conversation for the next months as the term Nine-Eleven crashed into the international lexicon, even though the usage everywhere would have been Eleven-Nine!  That particular evening, my brother Derek, who had just left to hang out with his friends, called (we had a phone in the house now, after ten years on the waiting list) and said, “Hey, switch to CNN; America is being attacked!”  And between CNN and the BBC we watched it unfold, hardly realizing what a profound effect it would have not only on internationalism but also on our own identities.   Once I had reassured myself that my family back in the States was safe I tried to sift through interminable news analyses that told me nothing (they never do, these so-called media experts as they hammer away at the same points endlessly).  Then came those first images of Bush stuttering his way through hastily summoned press conferences, as new names like Al Qaeda and Bin Laden announced their presence like unwanted visitors here to stay.

    Continuing on my travels I was struck by the depth of feelings I encountered, not just about the bombings but about the perception of America among different people.   Although many of them had experienced several similar incidents in their own cities (what we may have failed to realize is that terrorist attacks were old hat to so many, having occurred with regularity in most places around the world) they still found time and emotions to empathize with the hapless victims who died, even as they looked askance at US foreign policies which, many reasoned, had led to the incidents.  But the overflowing fount of concern and compassion for the reverberating effects on a nation and the world drowned the callous voices blaming the politics.  For several weeks Everyman was an American.  I was a newly-minted US citizen thrown into the cauldron of a post-nine-eleven world, thousands of miles away from my family and new home, yet in the midst of my family and old home, confronting questions of identity and place, moving uneasily in the liminal spaces where nationalities cross, forced to defend and attack the statements thrown up by conversations around strange and familiar coffee tables, street corners, and bars.  I remember fervently hoping this would be a time of rapprochement and peace-offerings, a time of healing and new terms of international relations—there just seemed to be so much goodwill even amidst the rubble of terrorism.

    Alas…!

  • “We Give Birth Astride a Grave”

    I’ve been fortunate never to have experienced the crippling effects of chronic  depression, although I know many people who have; of course I’ve had my share of despair where the world seemed to spin out of control and even sleep, if it could be had, offered no respite.   We’ve all spent late nights sprawled on a couch, clicking the hours away with a remote control in one hand, not to find anything worth watching for none exists, trapped in an eternal loop of channel surfing designed to keep sleep at bay for to close one’s eyes is to revive trolls and gnomes; and in the other hand a “smartphone” checking meaningless Facebook updates to authenticate the feeling that we’re not alone in this spiraling vortex.

    Try as we may to resist it, we are hardwired to television (and these days sundry technological bits and pieces).   TV sets outnumber people in an average US household!   And that does not include those other digital devices.  Does that mean we’ll engage more with a television program at home than with another human being?   Are we that obsessed with distracting ourselves?  From what, I wonder?   Being alone?  Not alone by ourselves, though that too, but alone with our thoughts.  Do we fill our days with sidetracking paraphernalia to avoid the agony of introspection which would inevitably lead to the central question of our lives—our mortality?  The consuming question is this: are our lives being driven by the specter of death?  Is that behind our attempts to fill every moment with something, anything, just to avoid confronting the only truth of which we are certain?  Are we trying to divert ourselves from ourselves?  What fears lurk beneath the urgency to keep busy, rushing through manufactured tasks and mundane events, going to church, jamming trivia into our days as though they were somehow meaningful, bestowing significance on them by virtue of our attention, deluding ourselves by clinging to an impuissant work ethic, a hand-me-down from past generations that prized it above all else?  We save very little time for vacations, have the least number of public holidays of any country, and when we do take a break we’re lucky if we find time to enjoy a sunset!

    When I first read Samuel Beckett’s anguished cry (the title of this essay) from his seminal work, Waiting for Godot, the full implications of it didn’t really strike me, although it vaguely echoed Thoreau’s “lives of quiet desperation.”  Since then my fascination with the so-called Theatre of the Absurd has offered insights into the world as I traveled across the globe, making more sense of what I saw than I cared to admit.  Looking through literature I found those sentiments reflected in other works—the sacrifices of “scapegoated” heroic figures from Shakespearean and Greek tragedies seek transcendence from the desolation of the human condition; comedic structures attempt to reorder societies by changing the rhythms of the old world to fit the melodies of youth, exchanging a past for a new future that will in time become replete with similar characteristics that made the past so unpalatable!  The tortuous cycle continues.

    These depictions offer only glimpses of hope as they strain against overwhelming realities.  King Lear ends in a world as hopeless and barren as can be imagined, prompting Beckett to use the king and his fool metaphorically in Endgame, that entropic image of a world we have destroyed.  For all his eternal optimism, Dickens’ brilliance lies in his excoriating portrayals of industrial London where little orphans were swallowed by rapacious thugs lurking in alleys and the trammels of England’s Courts of Chancery ensnared families for decades!  Any journey through his pages cannot ignore the glowering pessimism of the nineteenth century and the crushing weight of factories and machines leading to disenchantment and inertia—Chekhov’s characters are unable to rise from their indolence and go to Moscow, preferring to yearn for what will never come, for longing is their raison d’etre, replacing vibrancy with torpor, banishing the cherry orchard to the lumber yard as commercialism and utility sweep away beauty and grace, false notions anyway, having been acquired on the backs of serfs and the underclass!

    The machines have changed, but the effects persist—digital technology, once hailed with the same enthusiasm as the industrial machinery of the nineteenth century, is viewed with growing suspicion as intrusive, leading to questions of privacy and loss of identity, reducing us to disembodied voices on answering machines or twitter feeds.   The ability to stay in contact with a swath of people robs us of the desire to do so; if it’s always available it loses its urgency, without which we drift into isolation, cocooned by the minutiae of every day, paralyzed by the burden of trying to authenticate our existence.

    The midcentury Absurdists responded to humankind adrift from its spiritual moorings, prey to chaos and randomness in the desolate wasteland of post-war Europe.  Into this wilderness the age of television shoveled gobs of products that vainly tried to fill the emotional void.  Cities conflated into conurbations and Suburban became the new aspiration.  Rows of neatly manicured lawns, topiary gardens, and replicated houses inexorably cloned the same neighborhood throughout the country, eviscerating individuality through suburban sameness and a proliferation of me-too products.  Have you noticed how many toothbrushes are available in a store?  It’s hard to decide between all the promises they offer, each one so specifically designed (they would have you believe) that the only solution seems to be to use all of them at once!  They are soft, medium, hard, of varying lengths, with bristles of different materials, designed to work around or massage the gums, to find crevices where we thought none existed; battery operated, sonically focused, with differing whirring actions (clockwise, anti-clockwise), vibrations, and on and on and on.  Here’s the result of a Japanese study on toothbrushing (if you skip to the end you won’t miss much):

    The purpose of this study (Report 5) was to investigate the effect of difference in the length of toothbrush shank and type of tip of toothbrush bristle on toothbrushing pressure and plaque removal in the scrubbing method. Four kinds of toothbrushes which were different in length of shank (30 mm, 40 mm) and type of bristle tip (round type, tapered type respectively) were used in this study. Referring to the results of our previous reports (1-4), the dimension of new toothbrushes were determined as follows, nylon bristles: 40 mm long and 0.20 mm in diameter, brushing surface: 30 mm long, bristles: 3 rows with 26 tufts, and a straight handle. Twelve subjects participated in this experiment. Plaque scores were measured before and after toothbrushing. Then plaque removal rates were calculated. Toothbrushing pressure was determined using Watanabe’s method. The average toothbrushing pressure of the toothbrush with a 40 mm long shank (301.6 +/- 84.1 g/cm2) was higher than that with a 30 mm long shank (294.7 +/- 74.8 g/cm2), and that with a tapered bristle type (316.7 +/- 90.4 g/cm2) was higher than that with a round type bristle (279.6 +/- 61.7 g/cm2). However statistically significant differences were not found among the four toothbrushes in brushing pressure and in plaque removal on total teeth surfaces and on distal surfaces of the most posterior teeth (P less than 0.05; two-way ANOVA). (http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/2489554)

    We don’t purchase products any more—they buy us!!  Walking through shopping aisles we are attacked by displays that scream for attention; row upon shiny row leer as we walk past, similar to walking through a jail cell corridor showered by abuse from inmates on either side.  Under relentless pressure we succumb, reach out and grab one; maybe we even read the specifications on the container to delude ourselves into believing we made a wise choice.  But the selection is quite random, for the plethora of available products deadens our ability to choose.  With our identities eviscerated by years of slavery to the gods of marketing strategies, we don’t know who we are, much less what we really want.  We are now on sale, possessed by our possessions—clothes, household products, food, holiday resorts, TV channels, movies, books, and everything else; we have to take what we are given.  They choose us!

    There’s a moment in Ionesco’s Bald Soprano where the Smiths are discussing Bobby Watson’s death, reported in the newspaper; as the conversation proceeds we realize every single one of Bobby Watson’s relatives is named Bobby Watson.  Of course, the amusing irony is that a couple named Smith is making this discovery.  Keeping up with the Joneses (or Smiths) has turned us into Joneses, with the same houses, same clothes, and the same status updates.   Look through the myriad photographs on Facebook and after a while the pictures of kids, families, and vacations devolve into endless cycles of sameness.  We are all Bobby Watsons, interchangeable and alike, indistinguishable from one another, with nothing meaningful to say.  Our political and social parties and FB profiles are vain attempts to distinguish us but very little there is unique.

    A million times a year the same greeting, “How’re you doing?” is parroted by the same response, an exchange completed without losing a beat, with no real attempt to discover anything new about the other person.  Are we afraid to divulge personal details or do we really not have anything personal to disclose?  If Ionesco is right and we are transposable then no interpersonal exchange is possible.  “Have a nice day” is just a bare acknowledgement that we’re sharing space on this planet, a reflexive response between automatons whose language is now devoid of its original purpose.  The unique signifiers of words blend one into the other and degenerate into cookie-cutter expressions, filling the world with a terrible noise.  All that’s left are words without meaning and prattle as language.  The art of conversation, linked to our loss of identity, has degenerated into never-ending cycles of regurgitated banality, reduced to “tweets” and absurd status updates—absurd because, like the old couple in Ionesco’s Chairs, we’ve deluded ourselves into believing that anything we say (like this essay, for example) has meaning for anyone else!

    Towards the end of The Bald Soprano dialogue descends into gibberish, culminating in a show of aggression.  Failure to communicate leaves violence as the only option, for we desperately need something to remind us that we’re alive, that we still live in a social world, but all we have are anger, violence, and the instinct to survive—witness global skirmishes and full-fledged wars, ethnic cleansing, government-sponsored torture, terrorism, street violence, political discourse and TV discussions that are shouting matches, mass murders in villages, movie theatres, and even temples!  The jungle paths to destruction have always been available, obscured sometimes by the underbrush of forced civility, but easily accessible when survival is at stake.

    This is the Age of Saturn, a sullen, scowling time where malevolence permeates the republic and millions of bloggers can pen their unfiltered thoughts; where politicians lie with impunity and truth is lost among thousands of commercials; where we cling to worthless promises because we’re desperate to believe someone cares about us; a time of distrust, skepticism, and fear!  Music now finds its greatest audience only through competitions and the hushed loveliness of verse has descended into poetry slams.  A hundred years ago Expressionists rebelled against the dehumanizing effects of an industrial age, distorting reality to give vent to passions and feelings, releasing their creative streams unencumbered by constraints of logic or order; they themselves were victims of an emotional angst that settled upon Europe before exploding in a massive conflagration across the continent.  It almost seems like we have come full circle ten decades later.  In the new reality of this century, language and relationships have been compressed and distorted—140 characters (as random as the work of Dadaists) are enough to say what we feel and the social networks of cyberspace have supplanted front porches, parish halls, and even playgrounds.  We can now count the number of “friends” we have right there in the left column and on the right we know exactly what we “like.”  And still we are alone.  Waiting…

    Earlier I alluded to the fear of death being the driving force behind much of what we do, suggesting that much of what we do are merely distractions designed to keep us from contemplating the void.  Perhaps the most successful thing is to make it through each day.  When one considers the absolute haphazardness of life (people dying accidentally or being stricken with fatal diseases—who among us doesn’t know someone we love in this situation?) it’s a small miracle we are alive at any moment!  Despite the winding down of the world in Endgame they are left with the possibility of tomorrow; Godot never comes but Everyman still waits on the empty road; we persist.  The original French title of the play is En Attendant Godot, WHILE waiting for Godot!  Like Beckett’s tramps we find ways to amuse ourselves while waiting for the end—we play games, make art, have sex, get drunk, persevere in our jobs, convince ourselves that death is not tomorrow, and do a million things that slap our faces to wake us to the fact that we’re alive.  In the end, perhaps that’s enough!

     

  • The Stench of Augusta National

    Augusta National Golf Club just admitted two female women into its ranks.  But why are so many people hailing it as a victory for women?  Did women and the so-called Women’s Movement really need authentication by an effete old boy’s network of stodgy businessmen?   On the surface it would appear that they have finally put to rest the ghost of the old south and are ready to honor the role women are playing in our society; and there may be some of that among the membership (Warren Buffet’s statement earlier this year is a case in point).  But the fact that this decision took so long despite so much public debate and outcry can also be viewed as an attempt to stem the rising tide of a public relations flood, particularly in the wake of last year’s pointed questions by the media.  It appears to spring more from a need to switch off the public spotlight on its outmoded and chauvinistic policies than from a willingness to welcome women as equals.

    It was somewhat disheartening to listen to so many famous female golfers sycophantically laud the decision by suggesting that it was time for such a deed to occur—if they really thought the time had come, where were their voices all these years?  Surely they didn’t think that THIS year, eight decades after the institution of the club, was absolutely the right time?  Even media scrutiny was muted, probably because our self-styled fearless members of the fourth estate (with a few exceptions) were terrified of being banned from the Master’s tournament in April!  Remember, this is the club that forced CBS to exclude commentator Gary McCord from its news team because he had the temerity to suggest that the 17th green was so fast it seemed to be “bikini-waxed,” and that “body bags” were located behind the green for players who missed their shots!  The venerable Jack Whittaker never returned because he referred to the crowds as a “mob” rather than “the patrons.”  I suppose free speech is not as much a part of their lexicon as is privacy!!  So every year we now have the obsequious Jim Nantz and his risible reverend tones bowing and scraping before the Master’s committee!  It’s really interesting how the great media, like all bullies, cowers and trembles before a threat!

    Privacy.  That great American pursuit.  We seem to treasure our privacy more than anything else, even going to inordinate lengths to protect it.  Or do we?  Isn’t it hypocritical to say that private clubs may exclude anyone based on gender or race (Augusta admitted its first African American member in 1990!!!) at the same time that we make public decisions about women’s bodies, private sexual behavior, tax returns, and the lives of celebrities?!   It is legal to have a private club.  So what?  There was also a time when it was legal to deny women and minorities the right to vote!!  But when I heard over and over that Augusta National was within its rights to exclude women I couldn’t help wondering if there’s a social contract that should override facile explanations of legality.  When you run a tournament as important as the Master’s on a course as glorious as Augusta National you cease, in a sense, to be a private entity, for your existence, like all great sporting events, depends on public support and goodwill; on the money generated from sponsors (whose customers include women) and the ticket-paying public (also including women).   Hiding behind a technicality makes a far-reaching statement about your place in this modern society and is a disservice to collected efforts the world over to achieve gender equality.

    In my view the train left long ago.  It isn’t a matter of better late than never, or “it’s about time,” because that time has long since passed.  The Men in Green missed the boat and their smarmy efforts to redress the situation are too little much too late!  Their overseas cousins The Royal and Ancient Golf Club, one of golf’s governing bodies, is a male-only enclave.  This is the club that makes the rules of golf for all players, INCLUDING WOMEN GOLFERS, and no woman is a member!!  It’s almost an inescapable fact that these two clubs, in the UK and the Deep South, who constantly tout allegiance to their “heritage,” are really decaying pillars of colonialism, sexism, exclusion, and a segregationist society!  The stench of their past will inexorably persist decades into their future, whatever else they do, for the sins of the fathers inevitably are visited upon the sons!

  • Citius, Altius, Fortius

    The Olympic motto has always intrigued me because across so many disciplines it seems to be honored more in the breach than the observance.  Faster, Higher, Stronger is a clean set of aspirations for athletes all over the world—beautiful in its simplicity and crystalline clarity, with no room for doubt (now that electronic photo-finishes are employed).

    But across the Olympic spectrum sit ubiquitous panels of judges peering with dour eyes for form breaks and, risibly, artistic interpretation!  Artistic?  What the hell has that to do with Citius, Altius, Fortius??  How does one set of pointed toes differ from another?  Yes, I understand form breaks, but please, why in the world are there judges in the Olympics?  Referees and umpires and an assortment of officials to enforce the rules yes, but judges armed with subjective notions?  I don’t care that there are mandatory point deductions now, it’s still rife with subjectivity; consider how many protests were ruled on in the gymnastics competition.

    I have gone on record decrying the Oscars, Tonys, etc. for attempting to judge true artistic endeavors—I just don’t think you can tell the difference between two good performances (of course, even by saying “good” I’m exercising an artistic judgment).  Diving, gymnastics, figure skating (in the Winter Games, of course), rhythmic gymnastics, and equestrian events have no place in the Olympics.  As for freaking synchronized swimming?  Makes me apoplectic!!

    I will say that I absolutely love watching all the above events (I refuse to call them sports)—all except synchronized swimming.   If I want to see feminine legs flailing apart up to their thighs I’ll use my credit card on another channel!!   The balance, grace, and derring-do of gymnasts, divers, and skaters take my breath away; the fluidity and poetry are superb, BUT they exist outside the Olympic motto.

    For years the old Soviet Bloc panels of judges voted en masse to ensure that communist performers received the highest marks.  That’s why I pooh-pooh Larissa Latynina’s claim that her 18-medal haul somehow was better than Michael Phelps’ record.  Here’s what she said: “Well, I did not only compete in three Olympic Games and won many medals, but the Soviet Union team had very great success when I was the coach.”   Yeah, no kidding!  Your team had you as the coach AND the judges in their corner!!

    I’m not denying the brilliance of Olga or Nadia, but whenever there was a “toss-up” it was clear who was going to win.  See, it’s not blatantly obvious; it can’t be, for that way madness lies, and when a Torville-and-Dean comes along even the Blocs tipped their hats.  I’m sure one can find other examples to scuttle my theory, but as long as there are judges it’s no longer in the hands (or feet) of the athletes!!   And that’s just not fair.  Which is what the Olympics, in theory, purport to be: Fair!

    Some would argue that these are the modern games–judging and subjectivity are a small price to pay for the beauty of the performance.  The ineluctable fact in all of this is, of course, that the Olympic Games are not about competition as much as they are about spectacle and putting on a show.  That’s why NBC pays 1.2 billion dollars for the rights, and then ekes out each thread on prime time in the gaps between commercials, heedless of the fact that we already know the results.  And they’re right.  We still watch.  Because half of them are reality shows with their own panels of judges.  Do you seriously doubt the fact that twenty years from now some version of American Idol will find its way into the Olympics??

  • What’s An American?

    A dozen years ago I became a US citizen, joining my children and circle of friends in this grand experiment. It wasn’t easy dealing with the INS and a battery of incompetent petty bureaucrats who forced us to take our fingerprints four times on four separate occasions spread over two years (for a variety of ridiculous reasons) and delayed passing our papers onto the next steps in what is already an unwieldy process, until in a historic courthouse in Springfield we took our vows, swore fealty to the US flag, and severed ties with all other “foreign” powers.

    I must admit that I had misgivings about the whole process. I have always been uncomfortable with the idea of national identity, for it hovers on the brink of jingoism. It isn’t that I didn’t want to become a US citizen—if you live someplace it’s nice to participate fully in that society; it’s just that I’ve always been suspicious of barriers (geographical, religious, or any other) that tend to isolate and separate communities. I have pondered over the meaning of nationality and citizenship for a long time. I did it in India when, as a Catholic in a largely Hindu community, I grew up feeling somewhat distanced from the greater society in which I found myself—for many years much of it was my own doing, until I embraced the greater ethos of Indian societies which nestles beneath the surface, has nothing to do with race or religion, and is mined only through a conscious effort. The last decade of my stay there witnessed a widening of the edges of my personal credo and, by the time I left, my closest friends (with whom I am still in touch) came from all the colorful communities that dot the Indian landscape—Hindus, Muslims, Parsees…

    The huge discovery for me was the realization that a nation does not need to be defined by the ethos of any particular culture; in fact, the vibrancy of any country exists in its intercultural exchanges, however tiny—the more open those interactions, the less imposing the artificial boundaries that contain them. In the America of today, almost everyone comes from somewhere else—in that platitude lies a kernel of progress. We’ve been raised to believe in a melting pot society where unique cultures are boiled away to create a hodgepodge blend of something new—an American-ness.  A paradox! For as soon as that enters into the equation we start rejecting “the other” in favor of what is “ours.” And there’s the rub!

    For me I know what being an American is not. It isn’t beating my chest and saying that this is the greatest country in the world: there’s no such thing; it isn’t the flag; it isn’t military or economic control of the world; it isn’t freedom (in so many ways a questionable concept)! It may be only one thing, and I’m still not sure of this because, as you know, all of it is an experiment. Being an American means looking around me and celebrating the fact that there’s a Filipino in the room, and a Mongolian, and someone from the Congo, Botswana, Cameroon, and Rwanda (they’re all here, you know); a Spaniard, an Italian, and a German…Chinese, Taiwanese, Indian and Pakistani…Palestinian and Israeli…English and Irish, etc. I suppose being an American means in some way rejecting the term American and celebrating the world, for in so many ways the world is here and we often find so many ways to reject it!  And if we can learn to cherish that idea, geographical barriers will lose their jingoism!

    And that’s my thought for the day on this Fourth of July.